Most people would like to no a persons state of mind when they write... Because when we write we express deep inner feelings.
Today I want to share with you one of my skeletons... My deep inner feelings...
I was listening to a story on ihttp://www.pray-as-you-go.org/
it was dated for the week of Jan 29, 2013.
The topic was about family....
Who is your Family?
Who is your Mother?
Who is your Father?
Who are your Sisters and Brothers?
They story went on to explain how anyone who loves our Creator, our Father....
is our Mother, Father, Sister, or Brother....
Those family's we cling to will treat you like a stranger... Hurt you in ways that you wouldn't hurt your worst enemy.,.,,
Then the story paused.... Then the Story continued but now it's asking me, who is my family? Who are my Brothers and Sisters? Who is my Mother and Father?
After being stuck in thought, my eyes hurt so many tears came out... My eyes cried a river....
I realized that I've been hurt by everyone around me.. Family, the ones that say quickly "I Love You". The ones that you call on in times of need... Family, tge ones that has hurt me the most....
I think I'm looking for a way out.....
Imagine how I feel or what I got going threw my mind when I look in the eyes of people who have hurt me so deeply every day...
They are family....
I visualized how each person has hurt me and in that moment I learned who my family is...
Thank you FATHER for
http://www.pray-as-you-go.org/
truly they have enlightened me.
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Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
In The Dark
One important thing that I have noticed about my life as a Human Being is that it feels like I am walking in the DARK.
It's as if someone turned the LIGHTS OFF, and there I am standing dead center of a DARK ROOM i am all alone.. I am feeling around the walls in a panic, I cannot find the light switch. I am afraid of the dark, I cannot see here, I cannot breath here, I am so afraid, I do NOT want to be here.
I can sense that others are here, i can hear their voices they call themselves my family, but I cannot walk with them it seems that we all have a different journey.
I've given birth in the dark and my daughter has gone astray, how can I help her too see if I cannot even see.
I dropped to knees I'm crying, my heart feels a gaping hole, AM I BREATHING?
There are two little boys clinging too me as I walk in this DARK. I am praying that GOD gives us a good grip on one another. We are all that we have, they trust me, they believe that I no where I am going. I DO NOT and I will not tell them that rather, I say to them "GOD GUIDES US" and they BELIEVE.
There are things I've been doing routinely in this Dark. I need my eyes to TRANSITION in here so i can see. Just a flicker of light will help me. But there is none, the directions given too me by others in here is wrong. They don't no where they are going either.
I cannot see, FATHER GOD in Heavan, creator of all things seen and unseen. HELP ME TO SEE. I AM LOST. NAVIGATE Me, guide me in this DARK.
While standing here for a minute, refusing to move, I can't budge, I don't no where I am going. I am STOPED. I am Listening and waiting for direction. I am YIELDING.
My FAITH is not waiting and hoping that GOD takes me to a good place but My FAITH is having the strength and belief to call on GOD. Believing that he has heard my cry and as TURNED ON A LIGHT so that I may see which direction to go.
Are you here JESUS? Have you come for me?
angelllrussell@gmail.com
It's as if someone turned the LIGHTS OFF, and there I am standing dead center of a DARK ROOM i am all alone.. I am feeling around the walls in a panic, I cannot find the light switch. I am afraid of the dark, I cannot see here, I cannot breath here, I am so afraid, I do NOT want to be here.
I can sense that others are here, i can hear their voices they call themselves my family, but I cannot walk with them it seems that we all have a different journey.
I've given birth in the dark and my daughter has gone astray, how can I help her too see if I cannot even see.
I dropped to knees I'm crying, my heart feels a gaping hole, AM I BREATHING?
There are two little boys clinging too me as I walk in this DARK. I am praying that GOD gives us a good grip on one another. We are all that we have, they trust me, they believe that I no where I am going. I DO NOT and I will not tell them that rather, I say to them "GOD GUIDES US" and they BELIEVE.
There are things I've been doing routinely in this Dark. I need my eyes to TRANSITION in here so i can see. Just a flicker of light will help me. But there is none, the directions given too me by others in here is wrong. They don't no where they are going either.
I cannot see, FATHER GOD in Heavan, creator of all things seen and unseen. HELP ME TO SEE. I AM LOST. NAVIGATE Me, guide me in this DARK.
While standing here for a minute, refusing to move, I can't budge, I don't no where I am going. I am STOPED. I am Listening and waiting for direction. I am YIELDING.
My FAITH is not waiting and hoping that GOD takes me to a good place but My FAITH is having the strength and belief to call on GOD. Believing that he has heard my cry and as TURNED ON A LIGHT so that I may see which direction to go.
Are you here JESUS? Have you come for me?
angelllrussell@gmail.com
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