Why is my heart feeling fear? I don't feel that I am in any danger. Why am I scared? Why can't I settle down?
Being afraid of heights is contributing to my fear but why do I feel so uneasy up here? It certainly is beautiful but very unsafe.
I am taking baby steps towards the edge of the cliff I really want too see what's below. The closer I get the more afraid I get.
After a sigh of deep breaths I stand there and receive all that I can from my environment I absolutely love it hear and even tough I'm fearful of being up here I am taking deep breaths to cope with the fear.
WHY ARE YOU AFRAID?
I don't no, I answered.
ISN'T IT BEAUTIFUL HERE?
Yes it is, I said.
The breeze captivated me as if the water below sent an invitation up the cliff. It felt so good so I took a step closer and peaked over as the water crashed against the mountain I felt very fearful my distance was much higher than the water below me.
LET GO, JUMP IN!
My heart hurt with fear, my stomach couldn't take what I was hearing I was feeling sick suddenly.
YOU WILL BE OK, NOW JUMP!!
--------- TRUST ME ----------
But I couldn't be convinced, No Way was I jumping down there! Never! No! I am much to scared to do something like that.
THE FEAR THAT YOU ARE FEELING IS WHAT THE ENEMY USES TO CONTROL YOU.
YOU CAN TRUST ME, NOW JUMP!
Feelings of joy and love came over me, trust and faith started to become embedded within me. I believe you, I thought to myself as the words silently escaped my mouth.
I took a few steps closer to the edges looking over the cliff, stood up straight and turned away from the cliff. My back is facing the cliff now and all that I can hear is the wind touching my face and gliding across my ears it sounds like its speaking to me.
Reading my thoughts, I heard
YOU CAN TRUST ME, STOP DOUBTING!
TRUST
WHEN YOU NO THE OUTCOME OF THIS JUMP YOU WILL TRUST. DON'T WORRY I AM HERE.... LET GO.....
TRUST ME I AM WITH YOU
A true spiritual experience indeed. My heart was beating different. I could hear it, my heart was wide open.
I need you, I said. I want you, please don't ever leave me.
I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and Jumped!
Chills raced up and down my flesh, as I sat their in meditation.
From head to toe I felt chills a lot like the Domino Effect. I didn't even no that my eyes could produce this amount of tears. My eyes filled with tears more than I have ever experienced.
I Trust You..... I no longer needed to be convinced.
FALLING IS NOT FALLING WHEN YOU NO THE OUTCOME OF YOUR FALL, ITS AS IF A STUNT MAN IS PREPARING FOR HIS SCENE..... HE KNOWS THE OUTCOME....... HE TRUSTS
Falling is not falling for you anymore.
God Fill me with TRUST, show me how to trust you and bless me with Courage.
Fear I love you, but I no longer need you to interfere in my life. I no longer need you involved with my decision making.
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