When Things Changed 4 Me

I was crying I felt so much pain that I couldn't believe,  I didn't know what to think.  I was so confused I felt lost.  I was unsure how I ended up where I was at this moment. 

I humbled myself before my FATHER in pain and in sorrow with pitty of myself and my children.  I realized that in this LIFE.  I CANNOT SURVIVE ON MY OWN.  There is NO win for me trying to do it alone and had I continued living my life leaning unto my own WILL this pain would continue to come over and over, year after year.  The pain hurt so bad that I remember feeling NO Air going through my lungs. 

I realized in this moment that every decision that I had been making was by the Will of OTHERS and The WILL of THIS WORLD and the WILL of MY FLESH.

I Looked at my flesh differently it became disgusting to me I didn't want it all over me.  I felt like I was wearing it and not even the hardest shake would get it off of me.   My FLESH was begging me to do what makes IT feel good.  It wants to dwell within this WORLD.  MY FLESH loves this world because it is apart of it.  It will reside on this earth FOREVER and LOVES to sin.  My flesh wants to sin so bad that it made me sick.  I cried and cried begging GOD to save me.  "Help me, help me please FATHER please don't ignore me I need you."

I called upon my FATHER and he ACTIVATED his HOLY SPIRIT within me. His Holy Spirit has been revealing his truths to me about my FLESH and many other things. 

Enjoy my blog as I share with you how GOD is changing me life. 

 I am NOW Walking in the SPIRIT

I AM RESISTING the ways of the WORLD and controlling my BODY like a pilot who fly's his airplane....

I CAN SEE....